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I don't explain it to everyone since I've been stable for awhile. My closest friends know and are very supportive. Definitely don't feel ashamed or embrassed if someone uses the word "psycho" during a conversation. They don't mean anything by it. There's nothing wrong with ranting, that's what livejournal is for. And definitely don't put yourself down by referring to yourself as "crazy" or "nuts. You are not crazy. Some people have diabetes, some have asthma, we have bipolar, it's just like anything else. I find that if you approach subjects a certain way, people will respond accordingly. Like me, I'm gay, in highschool it was like this huge secret and yada yada but when I hit college and realized that it wasn't a big deal, I approached it like that to others and they began treating it like it wasn't a big deal either. Like instead of being like "I have to tell you something important, I hope it's ok with you but I'm gay," I'd just be like "hi i'm haven, this is my girlfriend Sara" it makes a big difference, so now instead of approaching bipolar like it's some ghastly thing, I'm just like "yeah I can't go out with you tonight, I have bipolar and sometimes it drains me and makes me want to sleep a lot" and that's it and people are like "oh ok, cool, I hope you feel better soon so we can go out another time. You can't treat bipolar like it's some deep dark horrible thing, it's just a fact and reality of life, no big deal. People aren't ashamed to say "I can't go running with you, I have asthma and I'm get an attack" So why should be people with bipolar be ashamed? There's nothing to be ashamed of, we didn't ask for bipolar, we didn't give ourselves bipolar and there's nothing we can do about it except, get a good support system, manage our symptoms, talk to others suffering from bipolar and get on with life and make the most of it, we can't dwell in a pit of pitty there are people way worse off than us. Anywho just some food for thought. I look foward to reading more of your journal. Bye hon!

When I refer to myself as crazy, I'm mostly joking. The part that isn't joking is an acknowledgement of my illness as an illness. It comforts me to think of it as a separate thing sometimes, my "craziness" isn't all of me. It is a fundamental part of me since it's shaping my life, but, blah blah. I'm sure you know all this. I want to laugh about it, so I do, and I have a pretty dry sense of humor. So, you're going the natural route?

Are you doing ok? Whats been going on lately? I haven't seen you around, just wanted to see if eveything was ok. I started a community for bipolars who like music. If you wanna join to rant about bipolar stuff. Its called bipolarsrock. I don't have any members :( I'm sad! just kidding. Let me know if you are doing ok.